Saturday, September 20, 2008

The Calm after the storm?

I had quite a quiet day yesterday which I probably needed after London. Last night couldn't sleep as I had some bizare thoughts which won't elaborate on, in case care co-ordinator picks up blog( I just realised I had given her blog address).

Today nipped into town to pick up card for sister's 18th on monday. Was very busy and for some reason felt claustophobic and panicky. This is strange as although Nottingham is quite a busy city nothing compared to Oxford Street. I also feel a bit edgy again like I feel the need to do things and my thoughts racing and filling up like they did before went to London. I guess this new activity is good, does it mean my depression has lifted if I no longer feel like can't leave the house?- but quite the opposite, now can't sit still and want to be doing things, everything and anything. Apart from eating that is, I've no appetitie, except for the odd sweet calorific type foods (choc, ice cream etc)

Got letter through from samaritans whilst away to come to open evening to sign up for training as volunteer telephone counseller. I'm not regretting volunteering, as I still want to do it , but in my head I'm saying ' what right do you have to counsell anyone else when your own head is a mess'

Anyway, going to head out for walk, still very sore from all walking in London, but its not like I don't need the exercise.


mandy lifeboats appeal said...

Hi honey

No major words of comfort here.

but not too exhausted to hope your walk helps and sending a hug

I think hugs are the order of the day.


La-reve said...

Hi Mandy

Thanks for hug cna never get enough of those, hope things have quieted ur end of blogland.

mandy lifeboats appeal said...

Me again...

Just checking there is life I can be party to in blogland