'In the midst of winter, I finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer'- Camus
Monday, October 6, 2008
Keep thinking about the bridge tonight, a particular bridge, a local bridge. I have 196 paracetamol but chances are I couldn't get enough down me to kill myself before I chucked up or even chickened out. OD has not been succesful for me. I am med free so I know the thoughts I'm having now are my own and they are crap but they're mine. Went out and bought my son a few christmas presents tonight which I will wrap so that if something happens he will have something from his mum for christmas. I know that is little conselation. I have also written a few notes for people instruction and a kind of explanation not an apology. I'm writing this to explain in case my blogging suddenly stops. I can't write much more the subject is sensitive and I don't know who may find it and read.
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6 comments:
Please don't.
Please stay safe.
You are valued and things can get better.
Hi Lareve
Am not at home at the moment hun but think I can send you mail via your blog and will do.
Don't touch them paracetamol..hang on in there and I know it sounds lame but try ringing the CMHT number today because you need some support there and deserve it.
Hugs xxx
Having DOH moment here..can't find an e:mail link.
I am contactable on madmandy7@hotmail.com up until 10.30 am and then this afternoon and please don't worry about making sense or not. This is me, and I often make no sense to myself, let alone anyone else.
xxx
Thanks for the messages means a lot. I am still here , hanging on just about. nothing more to say.
Keep on hanging in there.
...I have gone into the numb zone.
I like it here lots. Sadly, will wear off in a couple of hours. So making most of it whilst it is here.
xxxx
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