I decided not to go back on meds after all
The lamotrigine would need to be titrated and it would be too slow . the valproate works on the highs and I dont feel high- so pointless. Just being weak due to doubting myself over husbands betrayal.
Anyhow I am FINE
I have to be
Other things have gone off I dont want to blog about as some RL people come here. But I am in process of undoing mistakes
Things got bad last week, needless to say I woke up several hours later with a broken noose and a very dizzy day- You know your fat when you snap a noose. (When they said the meds would save my life, I didnt think they meant by making me too fat/heavy to hang)
..when will I learn I just CANT die..its not my destiny at all. Imortality
and this week I feel good, bought all new kitchen appliances (It made me feel good thats all and a kindle (another so I can read 2 books at once)and lots of pretty stationary
and the Best News of recent times (well anything would be better)
On 23rd Spetember I am being discharged from Mental Health Services.
It is when my review is, and my care co-ordinator whom I spoke to today says I dont need them anymore. Hurrah!!
2 years 5 months and there is a way out
I guess I am recovered as I was never ill or needed services, just to accept who I am..what I am....and what I must do...