Awake at 3:31am

Awake again, not been able to sleep at all - been prescribed Tamazapam to take every other night but not sleeping at all nights that I don't have it. Seems not only do I have insomnia but a need for that drug as well now. Need to be up with my son in 3 hours so hardly worth trying to sleep now and lots to do tommorow so no chance for daytime sleep even if this was possible. It's in these early hours when I frustratingly toss and turn in bed get up go downstairs go back to bed in endless cycle that I feel I have no real quality of life and long for a release. Think of overdosing again but have to fight this urge. Just want some SLEEP.