Very tired today. could not sleep last night drove to airport at 2 am. Was going to get on flight to somewhere. Not sure, anywhere really. Somewhere where no one knows me and I can clear my head. Got out and looked at departure board but couldn't figure out where I would go and what I would do when got there. Sat watching happy people off on their holidays, families looking close couples hand in hand. Funny how other peoples life seems so perfect when you're watching from the outside. For a minute I wanted to be that happy young couple, I wanted to be the mum pushing her twin buggy, I even wanted to be the old lady hurrying along to check in. I imagined I was a professional off for a business meeting far away, or I was travelling miles to meet up with long lost relatives. don't know how long was there but got back home in early hours, can't remember driving home, half thought I had dreamt going but receipt from airport shop. Today I have been baking - bannana bread and tidying for visit tommorow. House already tidy but felt I needed to do this. No trip out tonight hoping for a little sleep.