Monday, June 14, 2010


New worker came today I fair I may have said too much.She cancelled ATOs thing for now. Getting a home visit from shrink tommorow first thing. Question is do I anwer? Do I tell the truth? - I can't go to hospital...WONT. PANIC.


David said...

I don't know how to answer your question. I wouldn't know what to do in the same situation. I would probably lie, as always. But there have been times when I wouldn't have lied too.

Go with your instinct at the time, that's all I can say, and Keep Safe.

Take care, David (abysm) x

D said...

Isn't a private hospital ward an option?

Sometimes the state wards are horrendous. My local bin is a box and I crawled down there one time totally paranoid with books up my jumper to stop me stabbing myself, - yeah, that really compelling and intrusive side of suicidal ideation - but as soon as I got near to the hospital I thought no, fuck, the place is a claustrophobic concrete fucking box full of outnumbered demoralised or resentful staff who fucking hate me and if that's the kind of reception and environment that is freaking you then some of the private clinics, which don't cost that much more for the authorities to use, are less institutional and bossy and a bit more human. Maybe there's room to compromise there as trust is a difficult place to be in when both sides have dug in around the same positions because there's no-where else to go. I'm not sure of the basis of your ward-phobia but if its down to recurring negative experience in a particular hospital environment then ask if there is a local private option .

Hope things work out.

Bippidee said...

Please try to be honest. I know hospital can be shit, but maybe it would help you at the moment, but even if you are honest they may not admit you - you might just get more support at home. You need help to get through this, and you won't get that without being honest. Glad the ATOS thing is out the way for now. xxx

Sairs said...

I think honesty is the key too. I know it's damn scary, but I don't want to see you gone from this world. I know you feel like shit right now, but depression does go in waves, it goes down and comes up and goes down etc. I spent so many years in the downward spiral, that I never thought I would ever get out of it. I did though and I am so thankful that I did tell the truth at the time I asked for help. I'm thinking of you. Be safe!

Bippidee said...

How did it go honey? x